Day 2: The Middle of the Night

Last night, I woke up around 3am. Usually I don't wake up at all, but sometimes the light from living in the city or the noises from living in a condo awaken me when I am meant to be sleeping. I'm not sure if I'm the only one, but at this time, my mind wanders. I start worrying about things that in the morning seem ridiculous. The night before, our underground parking area got broken into and 7 cars were vandalized (which is quite a few for a building with only 21 units), so then I started worrying about our car down there and whether these people had access to the building. We have been broken into in our last building and that feeling of uneasiness is hard to shake. I wish these desperate people who break into people's homes understand the psychological damage it has on us. In the middle of the night, every little noise makes me nervous sometimes. So needless to say, replacing these concerned thoughts with positive, productive thoughts was not happening. I tried to think of the things I'm grateful for - for the amazing husband, being healthy, having a roof over my head. They did help, but my mind would pull me back in again. My conclusion is that the middle of the night is a work in progress. I'll focus on today now and getting a better sleep tonight. 

Day 1: More thoughts

As we've been going through the day and exploring this new idea, I have had more thoughts about what this is. It's kind of like a mixture of being present and enjoying the moment, combined with a bit of "The Secret" in order to manifest change in my life. A sort of two step process. Today, even though I had tonnes of school work to do, we ended up going for a long walk through Vancouver and it was blissful. We had our first day of snow today and the sun was shining. We stopped in and looked at some books in Chapters and got some supplies for school. We found some Christmas cards so that hopefully we actually send some out (for the first time in my life). And not once did I panic that I should be at home doing school work or working on my business. Blissful! I think I might enjoy this change in behaviour, although, it is a challenge to see what happens in the long run. Day 1 is always the easiest. Oddly enough, we walked into a little hardware store in our neighbourhood and ended up bumping into people we know - a friend who I've known since Grade 1 - her dad and husband. It was great to see them. Is this manifestation already and an attraction to connect with people or just a coincidence?

Day 1: The Idea

After watching the Oprah Show episode about John of God and the miracles that can occur, I started thinking. What are we doing on this planet? And why are we always so in our own heads? And if we are always in our own heads, why don't we use the mind in a more powerful way.

 The show was about a man in Brazil who the people have named "John of God." With no medical experience, he performs surgeries, with or without physically touching the individual. I am sure most people will think I am crazy, but you have to watch the episode or read up on John of God to understand. People have come away being cured or changed in some way. The theory is that love can conquer all and that these thousands of people that visit him daily bring a sense of hopefulness that is contagious. The energy that a person emits is more powerful than we give it credit.

Instead of assuming that this is possible, I had the idea to experiment with this idea that our energy and thoughts can change our path, even if we are critically ill. My challenge to myself is to try and replace negative thoughts with positive and to be conscious of my judgments to others and to myself. Ideally, I will stop worrying about everything, because I am a major worrier. My mom even gave me a "worry wart" stone when I was young, because I would wake up in the middle of the night worrying. I still to this day worry about everything - money, relationships, what my life's purpose is, age, success, what others think of me - and the list goes on and on.

I told my husband about this experiment, and he has decided to try it out too. He also happens to be a worrier. And I forced him to watch the Oprah episode against his will, which he later thanked me for, and we have had many interesting conversations since then. I will let him tell his story.

So here is the idea - every day I will journal about what happened that day and if I caught myself in judgment or negativity. I will attempt to connect with others energetically and see what happens in my life. It is simply an experiment and I am trying not to pass judgment already on what I think the outcome will be. I am going to enjoy the journey instead of aiming for a certain destination.